[Cassel pities himself instinctively, though he doesn't recognize it, and he doesn't expect it from Lila. He expects her to hate him, and he knows that she does, but he's endlessly surprised that she doesn't hate him more. He's shocked she even gives him the time of day, so the barbs and accusations seem like a fair trade to be near her.
Mostly. They still sting. There's hurt in his eyes for just a second before he manages to wrestle it away. He never can manage to keep his walls up around her.]
I was wrong. You were always stronger than me.
[Which is true, but maybe what Cassel doesn't understand is that putting Lila on a pedestal is as harmful as everything else he's done to her.]
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[Cassel pities himself instinctively, though he doesn't recognize it, and he doesn't expect it from Lila. He expects her to hate him, and he knows that she does, but he's endlessly surprised that she doesn't hate him more. He's shocked she even gives him the time of day, so the barbs and accusations seem like a fair trade to be near her.
Mostly. They still sting. There's hurt in his eyes for just a second before he manages to wrestle it away. He never can manage to keep his walls up around her.]
I was wrong. You were always stronger than me.
[Which is true, but maybe what Cassel doesn't understand is that putting Lila on a pedestal is as harmful as everything else he's done to her.]