[Well Steve never would have suspected that a single phrase could break his heart, but there it is, right there. He's in shock for a moment.
But only a moment. He manages to find his voice, but it cracks, embarrassingly, betraying his feelings.]
It isn't for me.
[But he knows better than to think this conversation is going to get anywhere, not after that, so he hangs up. He hangs up, and curls up in his corner, and concentrates on taking deep breaths so he doesn't work himself up into an asthma attack or something stupid. He can't let himself be dragged down by the heartbreak, as overwhelming as it is.
Something's wrong with Bucky, that much is clear. Something very, very bad happened to him, and Steve might not ever find out what, but he's not going to give up on his best friend. Because it's still Bucky, even if he denies it.
He just... needs a few hours to keep himself from crying and work himself back into his usual determination, that's all. Then he's going to track Bucky down and figure out how he can help.]
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But only a moment. He manages to find his voice, but it cracks, embarrassingly, betraying his feelings.]
It isn't for me.
[But he knows better than to think this conversation is going to get anywhere, not after that, so he hangs up. He hangs up, and curls up in his corner, and concentrates on taking deep breaths so he doesn't work himself up into an asthma attack or something stupid. He can't let himself be dragged down by the heartbreak, as overwhelming as it is.
Something's wrong with Bucky, that much is clear. Something very, very bad happened to him, and Steve might not ever find out what, but he's not going to give up on his best friend. Because it's still Bucky, even if he denies it.
He just... needs a few hours to keep himself from crying and work himself back into his usual determination, that's all. Then he's going to track Bucky down and figure out how he can help.]