[ He offers an uncomfortable shrug, shaking his head. ]

Dunno. I mean, I - I figure keeping everybody safe is. It's for the best. So. And when I first got here I was - I had to lower my dose and it mostly worked out, so I'll just. Do that again. We can share.

[ "And also I feel really fucking guilty for straight up murdering you and it's been eating me up inside ever since Alex spilled the beans on that detail" goes unsaid, but is absolutely a huge part of it. ]