tl;dr cr meme

[powersouls]

tl;dr cr meme

1. Post with your character.
2. When people tag you, respond with emotionally compromising essays about what their character means to yours! Or doesn't.
3. Cry a lot.

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[rubikscomplex]

Hey, kid...

[averytinyparticle]

Hey, Mr. House.

Quark still really likes House. It makes him feel normal to have a grouchy, judgmental, and strict old man bossing him around, even if it doesn't feel anywhere near as satisfying or comforting as it used to. Part of this might be exposure effects, part of it Winter's app, but knowing that House has used and lied to him...well, he hasn't ignored it or brushed it aside as much as he's decided to swallow his feelings about it in order to keep soldiering on and focus on surviving and figuring out how to get out of Norfinbury.

And despite having his trust broken, Quark recognizes how smart House is--and how much he can learn from him. He doesn't want to lose that. He wants to hold onto the partnership that they have. Learning piano has been one of his happiest memories not just from Norfinbury but basically his whole life. And it means so much to him to have someone in Norfinbury who treats him the way House does--not like am minion, of course, but of someone who's capable of being useful. Nobody else has made Quark feel even a fraction as empowered as House has. He knows he's a kid, and that he has limits, but he also knows that he has experiences in survival here that even some of the adults don't have. House doesn't ignore that. And Quark doesn't plan on doing anything so stupid or reckless that House rethinks his judgment.

Quark doesn't want anyone else to be his doctor. Luna's a doctor too, of course, but it's different. Way different.

In short, he's disappointed in finding out that House lied about his limp, and that he's an addict, and that he's twisted stories in order to get what he wants (usually medication). But it scares him much, much more that someday he'll make House disappointed in him. Quark won't ever make the mistake of turning House into a surrogate father or grandfather...but it's still comforting to have someone similar to fill the void. It feels safer than being alone. And yet, he doesn't trust House enough anymore to confide in him when he is faced with that gaping loneliness.

He understands now that what he has and can have with House is never going to be anything personal or sentimental or meaningful, in the end, even if he might sometimes want it to be that way. And because if that, it can't really be called a friendship. But at least he respects House, and figures that if he does his best and follows orders, House will respect him too. Maybe that's the best he can hope for anymore.