confessions meme

[devoutish]

1) Post a comment with your character spilling their confessions and innermost thoughts for all to see
2) Go around and comment to other characters ICly, expressing shock, awe, disgust, anger, etc.
3) Discuss, accuse, commiserate, threadjack, etc.

Comments

[devoutish]

I've pulled weapons on two people here, so far. Yeah, Watson and House. I absolutely do not fucking regret it, and if I hadn't done it, both situations might very well have gotten out of hand. One did end up escalating anyway, but at least it didn't happen that night.

I knew House was gonna be murdered before it happened. I supplied a weapon to the murderer, for his protection. He used that weapon to do the deed, and I don't regret that either.

If you can't tell what I think of you, it's probably purposeful.

Control is very important to me. I hate that I have so little of it here. And the most important part of it is having control over myself, internally, and I'm afraid I'm gonna lose that too.

I'm better about praying regularly here than I was at home. Something about losing everything else makes you want to cling on tight to what you still have.

I've gotten close to some people here, but none of you will ever make up for what I left behind. It's not personal.

Emily - the new kid, the little girl. We're stealing her away.

I'm depressed, but aren't we all?

[phaseshifter]

Whoa, you pulled a weapon on Doctor Watson?

 

 

 

House is less surprising, I mean. House.

[ecks]

I murdered Duster. I was not following any rules when I did it. I did not follow my own rules. I murdered him because I hated him for killing Doctor House.

[bywolves]

I'm not angry with you about it.

[powersouls]

I'm used to surrounding myself with people I care about, and AVALANCHE was my family back home. I don't have that here, and it's hard for me.

It's easier for me to lie and say I'm fine than try to tell anyone how I'm really feeling.

I'm afraid that I won't ever be able to go home, or maybe that I don't really have a home to go back to.

I've done a lot of terrible things to get revenge on ShinRa, I was just really good at lying to myself about why I was doing them.

[devoutish]

Hard for me, too.

[Solidarity!]

[blueteamproblems]

That confession on the last meme, about being in a body that's not mine? Yeah, that was me.

I'm an AI. A really fucking broken one. I have no idea how many of my memories are mine and how many are even real. I barely know anything about who or what I really am and that's terrifying to me.

I died just before getting brought here. Kind of wish I'd stayed that way.

I really miss my friends.

[maskintape]

 

 

Uh. Now I feel like a dick.

[bywolves]

I've killed someone here. I'm not afraid to do it again, if I need to. I also don't regret it.

My death has rattled me. I came back. I shouldn't have come back. I'm not dealing with it well. I can't sleep and when I do I have nightmares.

I care much more about the people I am traveling with than anybody else here. I would not die for any of them, but I would do my best to protect them. Lie for them. Kill for them. It'd be easier than breathing.

That also frightens me. Not sure how much longer I can stay close.

I'm engaged. At home. I'm afraid she won't be there when I return. If I return. I would rather stay here and die again, over and over, than bring back this radiation to her. If that is what's happening.

I consider Duster to be a separate person from me, in a way. It might be a relief to go by Royce again, should anybody figure it out.

[devoutish]

I'm not dealing with mine well, either. Still.

I'd help if I could.

cw suicide mention 8VVV

[phaseshifter]

When Rhys and I both showed up on the obituaries, it was because I killed him and then myself.

I'm not a good person. It'd be nice to blame it all on Jack, but I'm not sure I can.

I'm not alright. I am going to burn out. I do need to be looked after sometimes. I'd rather die than admit any of it and risk being helpless again.

I kind of miss Handsome Jack. A little.

I'm not a robot, Prickles McRoboracist can eat a butt.

[devoutish]

Find people who will hear this and won't think you're helpless for it. I know you have them.

[maskintape]

Anyone who spends too much time near me dies. It's real fucking neato.

 

 

 

Also I actually do have an ass.

[swatsflies]

Congrats on having an ass?

[despiteeverything]

This place makes me understand sometimes why Chara wanted revenge on humans and for monsters to win the war.

But even if that's true, if you think revenge is a good idea I think you're being stupid. I'm not saying that because I don't know what I'm talking about. I'm saying it 'cause I do.

Things were easier when nobody I knew from home was here.

This is the first time in a long time where if I mess up, it's really game over. I used to hate resets but if I had them here maybe I could be useful again.

Quark's the first human friend I can ever really remember having.

I'm scared if people find out all about monsters, they'll go after Mom and try to hurt her, or try to say she 'n the others are bad for me.

I don't like how different I am here. I don't like how this place is harder than dying over and over. I just want to go home.




If I had some way to make sure everybody made it home though, I'd do it. No matter what it meant for me.

[devoutish]

You're twenty years too young for a martyr complex.

[plundering]

My asshole mentor or... father figure, or whatever he was, fucked me over before I got here, and I didn't shoot him, but sometimes I wish I had.

I'd do anything to get rid of that AI in Rhys' head, and I wonder if there's anything Jack could do that would make Rhys hate him. Right now, I don't think there is.

I don't know what I'd do if Sasha showed up here.

I don't regret any of the things I've done, mostly because I don't see any point in regretting them.

[devoutish]

I called you beautiful in Russian.

[lol]

[fifty]

I think all of you people who are like "someone wasn't saying something I liked so I stabbed them" or "someone was being a jerk so I snapped their neck" or whatever are crazy. Like, jeez, murder is not supposed to be the first resort? It's different if they're threatening you or they're a murderer or whatever but god.

I'm pretty sure most of you guys who I've talked to think I'm kind of dumb, which is cool. I've always liked it better that way 'cause then I can set my own expectations for myself.

I know most of you guys don't really get what a nation person is. I don't really think it's that weird compared to all these worlds with magic and ghosts and time travel and whatever, but really sometimes what I am scares people or makes people sad for me when they get it so, like, whatever I guess.

I really miss being immortal. I've never actually died, and the idea I might is actually really terrifying! I guess it would probably hurt less than having to stick around waiting for your skin to regrow or your intestines to put themselves back together or whatever but I'll take that any day over not being here tomorrow.

England and I had sex in one of the houses with hot water.

I think there's actually something really wrong with me right now, like most of the time my thoughts race all over the place and I don't care about most people and what happens to them. I care about England and my people but other than that it's hard to focus and that's not normal. I'm not going to tell anyone, though, obviously.

I'm totally aware of what people think about me and I guess of America as a concept in general? Even though I'm used to that being the same thing I know some of you guys think of them differently or whatever. Either way, sometimes it sucks when people hate you all the time or assume you're an evil villain but most of the time I don't care that much 'cause I've gotta protect my people and anyway I know I try to do the right thing no matter what anyone else thinks I do.

[despiteeverything]

[Someone gets it.]

Yeah, that first thing you said! And the revenge thing too. [Which, funnily enough, tend to coincide a lot of the time.] Why do they do that kinda stuff?

[inruins]

Being in this place has reminded me of why my people were so afraid of humans for so long. It is... truly depressing.

Kill or be killed is not a way to live. Much less is traveling between frozen over buildings scraping by each day.

I'm worried on what effect this place will have on Frisk. I want them to have a good future, a future far from this place. I had been gathering money for college for them. If they wanted to go, I'd have enough for them one day. I want that future for Frisk. I'm going to make it happen. Somehow, I will.

[despiteeverything]

[They know you understand them. Well, mostly, but the parts that you don't are hidden for a reason or are too negligible to really matter.]

We'll get home. We have to.

[dravanicide]

My family, as well as the village we lived in, was slaughtered by dragons when I was but a boy of twelve summers. I was the sole survivor.

It was then that I decided to dedicate my life to vengeance for the sake of my fallen family, and in pursuit of that I endured rigorous training that used my past to temper my rancor of dragonkind. I was forced to relive my nightmares again and again--so that I could become a better weapon against the dravanians. So that I might be as scathing as I was willing to die to spill the blood of dragons.

I stole a thousand year old national treasure from mine own country, and I am technically a fugitive. Still I carry with me the eye of Nidhogg, even here it is in my possession.

I made my first friend at the age of 22.

I do not like what I do not understand, and that is why I hate machines.

Having dedicated the last two decades of my life to naught but training and the pursuit of Nidhogg, I have not a single hobby.

With learning my mentor and adoptive father failed to protect my village whilst he held the mantle of Azure Dragoon, I have lost all trust and love I had for the man. In my rage, I called upon the wyrm that slew my family so that I may have the strength to slay him. I was stopped before I could, but if given the chance, I would still run him through with my lance.

If killing any one of you--even all of you--would garner me the ability to return myself and my fellow Ishgardians to Eorzea, I would not need to consider it a second time.

[powersouls]

Oh.

[Welp.]

I'm so sorry. I lost my home, too.

[mightyratslayer]

I almost murdered a guy once.

I (accidentally, mostly) blew up a building. Also a guy's car. Almost killed all of my friends that time.

Also blew up another car to fake my death.

Oh, and I blew up a boat. Sort of.

I kidnapped a guy and a horse. Separate incidents, though. The horse thing was because I was a drug dealer for a few minutes. Oh, wait, two guys. It was two guys. Shit, actually, we kidnapped a Mexican family too. And blew up their house. And I kidnapped a baby but I gave it back.

I got in a fight with the Phillie Phanatic once but he started it.

I kept the Nazi hat.

I had another hatchet the whole time!!

I lie a lot. I'm good at it when it's about something important. Most of the time my friends don't catch on. I notice more stuff than people think I do sometimes.

I don't really know what I want because I've never had to think about that kind of thing before.

[devoutish]

How much of this is lies?

[headjacked]

I've killed a whole bunch of people, but not, like. Super directly. Self defense, actually. Sometimes I'm scared I'm not ruthless enough to make it to the top.

I have a big stupid crush on a certain be-hatted lady. And I'm afraid of the inevitable rejection because of the way things are.

I don't have any kind of respect for Jack anymore. Mostly, I just feel sorry for him.

I'm in hideous screaming agony nowadays and eating aspirin like it's candy. I've caved and taken Greg's meds when it gets too bad.

I wish I had a butt.

[maskintape]

Ginger runs a butt-knitting service, for - for the record.

[heiresy]

I'm the secret bastard child of the archbishop of the Holy See. Although he never told me and was in no way a father to me, I discovered through rumors.

I love my country and my people. I did not hesitate when I loosed an arrow at the heart of my closest and dearest friend when I thought him a danger. I would do it again, easily.

I was voted into the highest position of our new government, and I really wish I had not been. It is inappropriate for a bastard to be a part of the House of Lords.

My trust in my father to be a reasonable man cost another his life.

I am lonely and I am unused to being around so many people who aren't my countrymen let alone my species.

A small part of me enjoys dodging the responsibility whilst here, though it would be a cursed wish.

[dravanicide]

Loosed an arrow at the heart of my closest and dearest friend?

[Quirking that eyebrow yo.]

[swatsflies]

I have no memories of my childhood thanks to using GFs.

I'm actually adopted and it's just me and my Ma. It's why I don't really get still caring about losers who happen to be related to you.

I'm a SeeD, which are elite mercenaries. We usually get hired for monster extermination or military support.

I don't actually mind killing people if they are bad or if I'm hired to do it.

I'm only confident in my fist and my friends.

[bookofnope]

I hope it won't be considered a slight if I say it's difficult to picture you killing anyone.

[redrooms]

I'm a spy, formerly for the KGB. I defected to America before the end of the Cold War.

I'm much, much older than I look.

My handlers weren't against brainwashing me, or altering my memories, and if the Russian government here is at all similar to the one at home, I'd like them to stay very far away from us.

I also think it's incredibly naive that any of you believe being the test subjects of a government you know nothing about might be preferable to what we're dealing with now.

I've started files on all of you, and I watch the network very, very carefully. Just in case.

The fact that Steve was here at all when he shouldn't have been, and there's no way for me to find out how or why, bothers me immensely.

[devoutish]

What does mine say?

[heavensreader]

I cried until I was almost sick the night I found the house where the mother had killed her child. I hate crying. I wish I were older and didn't ever do it.

I miss Lao Dian, that old smuggler, more than I miss my teacher. If she were here she'd - oh, I don't know - it would be wrong somehow - but if he were here he'd know everything.

I'm not really scared that someone will steal the credit for my pass, but - but I am. It's very silly and childish and I do so wish someone would scold me for it, because I can't stop on my own and I hardly even know why.

I like Mr. Solomons and Duster and I even used to like Dr. House a lot, and I think that must not be very wise of me. I'm frightened of Duster now. If he ever knows it that would be terrible.

But I know people and I am going to do something here to stop all this killing and fighting. That is what I am going to do.

[devoutish]

Adults cry sometimes, too.

And Duster will not hurt you.

[bookofnope]

I have now lost control and attacked someone for the purpose of feeding on them twice here. Twice in the space of three months, and many more times I was on the edge. I know exactly where this is going.

Much as I loathe being sick, it's a distraction. A concrete kind of misery to focus on. Feeling better has been getting... frightening.

I'm not certain of my faith anymore. Oh, it's surprising to think I ever was certain of it, but it's one thing to wonder if there is a God and another to wonder if He exists but is fallible. If Anatole comes here, what will he say to me?

I have friends here, some closer than I've thought possible, in this span of time. But they are not, they will not be a replacement.


And yes, I did try to nudge things along with Angel and Kunsel, and I might have done the same with Rhys and Fiona, given the chance. They're young. They're alive. They deserve happiness. And I deserve a firm blow to the back of the skull.

[phaseshifter]

Maybe if you drink a little blood, often, you won't get to that point. It's worth a try, you freaking doof.

Oh, and [HERE HAVE A SWAT TO THE BACK OF THE HEAD WHAT IS FREAKING WRONG WITH YOU GRUMPIRE HOLY HECK]

[rubikscomplex]

Wilson is my best friend... pretty much my only friend, actually.

I've been in love before. I'm still in love with her.

I've had sex with my boss. She's a good lay.

I bought a corsage for a girl who made me go on a date with her.

I like kids more than adults. They're usually more interesting and less annoying.

I was once charged with assaulting a dying man because I saved his life.

My car was a gift from the local mafia.

[oh_negative]

Don't worry, you eventually make another friend. His name's Steve McQueen.

[circumsutus]

I'm having another manic episode. I hate not being able to control myself, but I don't care if I hurt someone.

I was a soldier as a child and I train children as soldiers now. From what I've heard, that's unusual.

As far as I know, I'm the youngest doctor here, but that's probably because I skipped medical school.

[oh_negative]

...How are you a doctor if you "skipped" medical school?

cw: suicide ideation

[haillenarte]

Haurchefant is my best friend, my first and one and only, and all I ever wanted in life was to love and be loved by him.

He does not reciprocate, and he can never know. It is a battle lost before it was ever begun.

He nearly died to save me, many and many a year ago, and when he died for true, to save someone he had known only so many moons, I thought — I thought I might break from my own despair. And he can never know that I thought of how I might join him, and the things I would give up to see him once more, and sometimes, ah, sometimes, I wished he had never saved me, I wished he had left me to die...

If Ser Aymeric is to be believed, then our country of Ishgard is free: her thousand-year war with dragons is ended alongside her theocracy, and a new age of peace begins begins with her republic. But I never wanted peace, no, I wanted death to all dragons — and I want death even more now that Haurchefant is gone.

I have no desire to return home if it means returning to a world where Haurchefant will be a memory. Norfinbury is fine. Anything is fine, as long as he...

...I doubt he values me as much as I value him. But then, I can hardly blame him — I wouldn't, either.

[silverfuller]

Joacin....never think such things. You mean the world to me.

[eclecticbassist]

I kind of wish my friends were here. Um. The alive ones, I mean. I've barely even talked to them in years, and one of them died the last time I saw him. But that's still really selfish.

Sometimes I feel bad for missing them at all, because I know they're okay and I have friends here that I've spent more time with in person than any of them. Which has actually been pretty nice? I think this is kind of what navigating the Outer Ring with John and Davesprite would have been like.

I feel equally useless with my powers as without them. I've never had them when they would be useful and when I do have them they can't fix anything. If anything they just make me dangerous.






Also I stuffed and mounted my grandpa when I was, like, five????

[empireofrats]

Corvo is my father.

I'm scared.

One day, I'm going to make Duster smile.

I don't feel strong enough to be Empress.

I always feel as if I'm the only child my age around.

I'm scared we won't be able to get back home.

I hope Mister Solomons gets back to his Jewish family.

I'm worried about seeing a monster.

I miss Corvo.

[bywolves]

No.

[silverfuller]

There are men here I'd not hesitate to put to the blade but I consider the protection of companions to be of the utmost importance. I'll not leave my friends for the sake of vengeance.

Of late men and women from my homeland have come. I am glad for their company and the sight of a familiar face, but...I would much prefer they had not come. None deserve to be here.

I do not know where I shall go when this is all over. I find this uncertainty frightening at times but I cannot...I must not let it slow me down.

[haillenarte]

...It was worse in Ishgard, Haurchefant.